Maven

I'm frustrated and feel the need to vent...sooo since no one is home for me to bitch at, I'm gonna bitch on the internet. Lets make this never ending story short as possible. I have severe endomitriosis and it really fucking sucks. I have to have a hysterectomy by the end of this year, and it is really starting to sink in and make me extremely sad. I've had it bad for 3 years so its no surprise but I tried to pretend like it was all alright for a long time, regardless of the horrible pain I get every single day. For most people having that huge life changing surgery wouldn't be too bad, but I've wanted to be a mom for a long time and its tearing me up inside. We have been trying, and failing miserably. Endomitriosis causes intertility...and considering the fact I'm in stage 4 there really isn't much hope at all for this every happening for me but I still put myself through the hurt anyways. I still have 5 more months left to try so I will keep trying either way. I recently started acupuncture to help with my pain and to help with infertility. I go in for my second appointment tonight and I'm feeling a little more optimistic about it than I was last week. I really don't have a whole lot to look forward to lately so any little bit of hope I have I'm hanging onto it for dear life. I guess I'm writing this mainly because I just need some encouragement and pick me up from anyone right now, these last few weeks I've been really down and can't seem to pull out of it. On the plus side this is the week I'm ovulating which means lots of sex for me! ! ! Yesss!! Also, I'm gonna put up some new pictures in my personal gallery so check that out too :D and anyone in the Seattle area Vital Remains plays tonight and you better fucking go, that band is so sweet live!